This is a very difficult post to write and i am not going to promote it in any way,it will just be here on my blog and i am interested to see who actually will read it,that being said,it will require a visit to my blog.
I feel so down at the moment and find it hard to put into words.Everything and nothing seems to be wrong. This laptop failing has caused me so much stress and frustration.When i eventually manage to get online after hours of waiting,if i click on a link,click on a DM message or even hit the reply button on twitter,it freezes and my laptop has to be turned off again and can then take hours to get back online. I have not spoke to anyone on twitter for a while apart from the very odd tweet that actually did not freeze my laptop. As i have not been too active recently,i have actually lost about 15-20 followers on twitter and also around 5 blog followers. Yes this is fine and all part of the experience!
But this is only part of the problem,i actually feel like i dont want to talk to anyone,it's just the way i feel.Maybe i should take a break alltogether from all social media and come back fresh and myself again.Maybe i really need this as i have spent alot of time on twitter over the past 12 months.It has helped with my depression being active online and i am afraid that being offline will make me feel even worse than i do now.I just dont know what to do but i do realise that probably nodody will actually read this so why am i writing it????????????.
I have also accessed my twitter on a mobile phone and it really sucks as my Timeline feed is all over the place and i have no interest in using my phone to go on twitter,i would rather not do so at all,
a very depressed,confused and disillusioned Hollie
**I will however try to comment on as many of my fav blogs as you people cheer me up with your posts **