Update 15/11/15

Hi everyone,this is just a quick post to explain why i havn't been too active on twitter recently. The reason is that every so often i feel really down and generally lose interest in everything.At this present moment,i feel like this and meaning no disrespect to anyone,i just want to be on my own and not talk to anyone. This is all part of many issues i have where mental health is concerned!

It is a constant struggle for me as i have opted to steer clear from any form of medication.I could be ok tomorrow,i just never know tbh and i take each day as it comes. Over the last few years,i am not a big fan of Christmas and i am not being negative by saying that and i am not sending out any cards this year and i dont want to recieve any this year either! I hope everyone respects this.

If i was to tweet,i am afraid that my tweets would be very negative and i know that some people who follow me have said that they hate following negative people and as i do know that it is everyone's own decision to follow whoever they want,i just dont want to put out too many negative vibes in what is meant to be a happy and exciting time for everyone with Christmas on the way!

For anyone who isn't aware of my situation,i will briefly explain it now.I suffer from the highest form of Depression and also several anxiety disorders and an OCD that just wears me out. I am very messed up and as i said earlier,sometimes it all just gets too much for me. I havn't slept well at all for a long time and where work is concerned,i dropped down from working a 5 day week to a 3 day week.I am now going to be off work for at least 2 weeks as i am going to the doctor in the morning (again) and he will recommend that i do not work. My boss will be really pissed off as this has happened alot over the last year or so but he is very understanding.

Anyway i just thought i would share this in a blog post as i then dont have to talk to anyone and it is the easy way out. I could be ok again soon and i hope i will be but i also want to say that if i dont reply to any tweets,i am so sorry,i am not being rude,it is just a difficult time for me,

thanks for reading,

Hollie