Looking For Advice #Relationship Issue

This is a different post for me to my usual but i am hoping for some advice on what has happened.

As some of you may know, i was once married but my husband cheated on me with a good friend of mine and it was the end of our marriage. I struggled for years and eventually in April i started anti-depressants for the first time. A certain amount of paranoia can be associated with taking these though.

So this is the situation guys and girls. I have been told by my boyfriend that one of my closest and best friends is interested in him. Her sister has contacted my boyfriend and told him of her interest and it was done with the intention of finding out if he could be interested and how the land lies.She told him in strict confidence and asked him to promise that he would not say anything to anyone. He did make that promise but has broken it as he told me. As far as i know,my friend has no idea that she has done this but maybe she does and did actually ask her sister to find out.

My boyfriend has been upfront with me about it but me being me and what has happened to me in the past,i cant help but feel worried and anxious about the whole situation. I have noticed recently that when we are out,she seems to be there more times than not.I dont want history repeating itself but there is so many similarities to what happened in the past. Also he has told me that she texts almost every day for some reason or another.

I do remember her saying to me in a joke that if things went wrong with me and him that she would love a crack at him,we were just having a laugh at the time,well at least that's what i though.

My boyfriend has told me that he has no interest in her but he has always seen her as a friend as they both get on well together. However,last week she asked him if he would go for a coffee with her someday as she has recently had a family death and needs someone to talk to and as he is good at this sort of thing,she would feel better for having that talk. They both told me about this and i was totally ok with this at the time but i know now that this was suggested after he knew of her interest. My God,i am so confused writing this!

He is actually going away for a week next week but it is work related and myself and my friend have arranged a few girls nights out while he is away,oh God i just thought of when i was married and my husband was away,my friend who my husband cheated on me with tried to get me to get with another guy while we were out but i was having none of it as i am not like that.

So to sum it all up,
he knows of her interest and has told me,
she does not know that we both know as her sister asked,
knowing of her interest,he was willing to go for that coffee,
i have no idea what to do now.

Surely it is an unwritten rule that friends dont try it on with their friends other half,this is twice it has happened to me and i dont know what to do,

any advice will be welcomed,

thank you,

Hollie

How BOTS will work this season

Ok guys and girls,we are trying something different this season where our Girls v Guys leagues are concerned and this is how it will work.

There will be 2 leagues of 32 Girls and 32 Guys and one league of 22 v 22 and all 3 leagues will be CLASSIC leagues. How the points scoring on a weekly basis for our respective teams will work is as follows,

1st in league 20 team points,
2nd in league 19 team points, (all the way down to)
20th in league 1 team point,
therefore if you are placed anywhere between 21st and 64th or between 21st and 44th in our 3rd league,you will score zero points for your team so please keep that in mind. At the end of each week,the team which scores the most cumulative points will get the win.

There will also be Cup knockout comps throughout the season and these will be H2H girl v guy matches. These should be alot of fun and hopefully create some banter on twitter.

Just a note on the cup knockout competition for the league of 22 v 22 which is called "Battle of the Sexes". As there are 44 teams,it will be required to have a qualifying round of 12 girls v 12 guys so this will be determined by the top 10 guys and girls in the league getting a bye to the 1st round after a GW which is still to be decided. So to sum up,it will be top 20 and the 12 winners of the qualifying round will take part in the 1st round of the knockout cup.

This is basically how it will work and i must stress that all leagues are of equal importance and are not categorized as league 1,2,3.

*All leagues are now full*

thanks to everyone who has joined both the Girls and the Guys teams and the best of luck to both teams,sure bragging rights are at stake and the girls are very confident of winning all 3 leagues so bring it on guys,

Hollie (on behalf of all the Bots crew)

My 2nd Month on Sertraline-Update

As i have previously wrote a post on my first month on sertraline which was a disaster,i feel it is only right to do a quick follow up post as my dosage was increased from 50mg to 100mg after being on the 50mg for a month.

If you have previously read my original post,you will know that the first month was horrible in so many ways. I was tired,had no motivation at all,never slept well,felt down all the time and even had suicidal thoughts throughout the month (it actually says on the side affects that it can cause thoughts of suicide).

After the month,i went back to my GP and even though i told him that these meds are not working,he suggested that we up the dose as he believes that these are exactly what i need and he did not want to change me onto something else.

5 days into taking the 100mg,i have to say that i feel alot better. I feel less stressed and have a little more positivity about me and i can handle situations alot better at the moment. I still feel a little tired though but all in all,i am pretty happy so far.

So what i would like to say is that if you are prescribed sertraline,stick with it as it takes time. In saying this,i know that everything could change but for the moment,all seems to be going well,

thanks for reading,

Hollie x

My First Month On Sertraline

 
As i have been prescribed Sertraline,i thought it may be helpful to document my first month on the meds.I have been diagnosed with severe depression while also having anxiety disorders and a mild OCD that does tend to wear me down even further.I do understand that every medication can affect each individual differently. Even if it is of interest to 1 person,i will be very happy so what i will try and do is tell you how i feel on a daily basis. I take one tablet a day in the morning after breakfast.

Day 1- Felt absolutely no difference whatsoever but i found it very difficult to sleep that night.

Day 2- OMG the tiredness i feel is like nothing i have ever felt before in my life. I took the tablet thismorning and it is now 6.30pm and i am exhausted and need my bed i am that tired. I also have felt very hungry all day and even shortly after eating,i feel like i want to eat more.

Day 3- Today has been a strange day in which i have felt a very strong feeling of not trusting my boyfriend. This has not happened me before and practically all day i have felt that he is having an affair with a co worker of his. I have also felt quite hungry all day.

Day 4- Again i have felt hungry all day and still have this feeling of not trusting my BF even though i know that i have absolutely nothing to be worried about.

Day 5- All i can say about today is that Sertraline seems to take my mind off some problems and concerns but seems to then create others. I have a strong feeling of paranoia but it is at this stage too difficult to explain.

Day 6- Today is not a good day at all,i feel rubbish and dont want to talk to anyone. I have spent the day avoiding people and turned off my phone.

Day 7- I feel exactly the same as i did before i started on sertraline,i am now having my doubts as to whether these are going to work for me or whether i will have to try a different anti-dep!

Day 8- After a terrible night's sleep in which my mind was going a mile a minute thinking all sorts,i actually believe that these tablets are having absolutely no affect on me at all!

Day 9- These are definately not working at all,i still feel crap,i am not eating as much however.

Day 10- Feelings of i just want to be on my own today. I have turned my phone off and even while i am on twitter,i have no inclination to talk to anyone at all. My friend has been trying to contact me and she has even sent me a private message on fb but as i have not actually clicked on the msg,she has no idea that i have seen it so i will leave it at that so!

Day 11- today is the worst i have felt in a long time,i actually feel worse than i did before i started on these meds. I feel totally unmotivated to do anything and still dont want to talk to anyone.

Day 12- i really dont think these are working at all,i still feel totally crap. I seem to have lost interest in alot of things that had previously kept me happy. I was told by my gp to give them time and i guess i will do but so far,i am very disappointed that i dont feel any better at all!

Day 13- i have absolutely no motivation at all to do anything and i have so much that i have to do. I feel like i just could not be bothered and some of the things i need to do are important.

Day 14- 2 weeks in now and i still feel crap. Today i fely very unhappy with my body and have been wondering all day why my bf is interested in me at all. I can honestly say at this stage that these tablets are not working for me and i am very frustrated at this moment in time.

Day 15- for some reason,today was a good day. Maybe it has nothing to do with the tablets as i have had good days before them but who knows. I still think at this stage,i have every intention to change to different  meds at the end of the month,this is my plan.

Day 16- still feel crap and very unmotivated. 16 days in now and i havn't had a decent night's sleep in so long and even writing this,it is now 2.45 am. I should mention that the feeling that my bf is having an affair has passed thank God as deep down i knew it was something that would never happen. The meds seemed to give me trust issues for a period of time.

Day 17- another day in which i feel the exact same as i did before i started and sometimes even worse. I cant wait to see out this month and i can go back to my gp. This is so frustrating as i want to feel better in myself and then hopefully go on to enjoy life.

Day 18- i feel totally unmotivated today and have had lots to do but actually getting around to doing anything was a real effort. Also felt very tired all day too. Also what i have noticed is that some people who i would call friends no longer talk to me,coincidently since i shared my first post about having depression and starting on meds. I am still the same person and am not like a fragile doll.

Day 19- another rubbish day in which i am certain that i am wasting my time taking these tablets. I had alot to do today but got everything done but felt under pressure all day.

Day 20- yet another day in which i felt pretty awful and negative practically all day,also felt very tired for most of the day too.

Day 21- a positive day for once,thank God. Actually had a really nice day but i doubt that i can put this down to the meds.

Day 22- not a great day,having some serious trust issues and again i feel like paranoia is settling in.I also must mention that my sex drive has diminished in the 3 weeks on sertraline. This is a side effect that i am not happy about.

Day 23- another crap day if truth be known,i did however get out and enjoy the sunshine and even got a little tan but generally i still feel quite down.

Day 24- ah these are just not doing anything at all and i am sick of it at this stage. Anxiety levels are almost at an all time high,i dont want to talk to anyone and if truth be known,i actually feel worse than i did before i started these. It is so annoying and frustrating!

Day 25-27- nothing changed at all,still feel rubbish,feel very unmotivated,tired and generally feel negative about everything.

Day 28- i went back to see my GP yesterday and explained everything to him and the fact that i dont think the tabs have done anything at all for me,that i still feel as bad as ever with no motivation,no positivity,wanting to be on my own and generally not enjoying life at all. He has suggested counselling but this is something that i am not interested in doing. He has upped my doseage of "sertraline" from 50mg to 100mg and said i should try this for a further month. To say i am surprised is an understatement as they have done nothing for me. Today i feel worse than ever but have started on the 100mg thismorning.

I hope this post may be of some help to someone out there and thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read it,

Hollie x

So Finally i Have Decided To Try Meds

This is my first blog post in quite a while as i really have been so unmotivated of late. As some of you may know,i have had some issues with depression/anxiety/ocd and have always refrained from going on any sort of medication as i believed i could fight this myself without them but unfortunately this has not been the case and i am not ashamed to admit defeat.

It has been suggested to me on many occassions by my doctor that i should go on anti depressants and yesterday i agreed to do so.

I have been prescribed Sertraline and have taken my 1st one thismorning,it's one a day for 3 months. I have been told about the side effects and i will just have to see what happens,if anything.

What is sertraline?

Sertraline is an antidepressant in a group of drugs called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs).

Sertraline affects chemicals in the brain that may be unbalanced in people with depression, panic, anxiety, or obsessive-compulsive symptoms.
Sertraline is used to treat depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, panic disorder, anxiety disorders.


I have no idea how they  may effect me as a person,my thoughts and just everything about me in general so only time will tell. I have not been myself at all recently and even on twitter,i have been nowhere near as active as i have been previously so definately something was wrong lol!

Also i have been prescribed Zolpidem and having read up about it,i read some strange things about it.The one that stands out for me is that unbelievably it is said to be a well known date-rape drug used in the USA and replaced the drug known as rohypnol as the drug used most often. I am not sure if it is true but it must certainly be strong.

So that's my update and from now,i will just see what happens,i just dont know what will happen but at least i am trying and if anyone is familiar with Sertraline,could you please let me know in the comments below,

thanks for reading

Hollie xxx

My #fpl Quest For Top 1% Overall Finish

 I will be updating this post from the top rather than having to scroll down the page for updates!!! Starting position at GW28 375k

20/05/16

Well unfortunately i failed to make the top 1% but i did make the top 1.6% with an overall 61k finish and having 2181 points. It was however my highest position all season. Also i am kinda pleased that my team did rise 314k places since the start of this post.
This season i again played it cautiously for the 2nd year running and this does not suit me,i have learned that this approach does not work for me and next season will be different. I did create a 2nd team for that first time this season due to the fact that i had been asked by a few of the bots girls to join their leagues and i didn't want to let them down. This team was played with less caution and was a lot more adventurous and it finished in an overall position of 9275.
I am looking forward to next season already and i will revert back to my old way of playing. Thanks to everyone who has read my fpl posts,you are all amazing. Enjoy your summer and see you all back again in August!

16/05/16

today i scored 52 points with a -4 hit and mainly thanks to my 2 transfers in of Mane and Giroud. I have climbed the overall and am now in 61k overall (my highest position all season)with Smalling and Rashford to play,that is if they play at all.
So to sum up,at the moment and since the start of this post at GW28, my team has gone from 375k to 61k which is a rise of 314k places and an actual overall of 1.6%,ha ha i am clutching at straws now lol! I am pretty happy with this as it really has been a tough and challenging season!

14/05/16

going to take a -4 hit this week as i believe Payet is out so it will be Payet to Mane and Carroll to Giroud,i fancy both players this week and i think they are worth the hit and i will captain Sanchez. I know it is impossible to now finish inside top 1% as in 79k,it is abit much to ask so i will be happy if i can stay inside top 100k concidering what a disappointing season i have had.

13/05/16

After a gw score of 110 points with a -16 hit, i have moved up 45k places in total this gw from 124k to 79k overall. I am however about 35 points away from a top 1% finish with only the 1 gameweek left so i cant really see it happening but tbh i would be happy with anything inside the top 100k.
This week i dont plan to take a hit but will do just the one transfer.I am not sure as yet who it will be. Also it is important to pick the right captain.I cant see past Sanchez at the moment tho.

11/05/16

Well i can forget about a top 1% finish now as i am currently in 107k overall but was at 124k at the start of the gw. I decided to take a -16 hit this week and i actually cannot remember ever doing that before even in my very reckless days of playing fpl. My revised target overall is now top 100k which tbh is not to bad as the first time this season i actually entered top 100k was at gw 34.

04/05/16

What an awful gw in which i have recieved a red arrow and now sit in 124637 overall. Needless to say,i am very disappointed with this and now feel that an overall top 1% finish is beyond me. I will now set my target at a finish inside the top 100k.
This week's dbl gw is interesting as i plan to take either a -8 or even a -12 hit. At this stage of the season i feel like i should just enjoy it and hope for the best. The players i am looking at are Cresswell,Carroll,PVA and very possibly Hazzard too but i am not sure about him as he has both games away from home. I am also concidering taking out Rashford for Defoe or Borini as i dont fancy Rashford at all this dbl week. It will give me 9 dbls and will play triple captain this week.

29/04/16

I made 2 transfers and got rid of Coutinho and Alli for Payet and Brady. These were done with next week in mind as both have 2 games.

27/04/16

Finished the GW in 99928 position overall so i suppose i am inside the top 100k but have a long way to go to finish inside top 1% and time is running out fast. I will do 2 ft's this week and take a -4 hit.

25/04/16

After a pretty awful sunday,i am now in 100747 overall and sjust out side the top 100k. I have a long way to go to get inside top 1% and i am not that happy with my team at all. Tonight's game is important as i have Kane as captain and really need some points.

22/04/16

Well i have finally made it inside the top 100k and am now in 71154 overall after my 143 points in gw34 but had taken a -8 hit. It is now the 7th straight green arrow so i am pretty pleased and it represents a rise of 304k since gw28.
My plan for this week was to get Kane and Alli back in but it will require a -8 hit to do so,also Simpson was my 3rd choice transfer but mid week Kane unexpectedly rose in price and i had been watching the price changes all day and never thought he was going to rise so this has only givin me 4.1 to spend on my 3rd choice.
Thisevening i have bought Kane and Francis and have taken a -8 hit to do so. It has dropped me down to 82k overall but i figure i have strengthened my team in doing so. Coleman and Mitrovic have been transferred out. I am not too concerned about dbl gw37 at the moment as i now plan to do no ft's next week and have 2 for gw37 in which i will probably take a hit and have about 6/7 dbl players as well as Aguero/Sanchez/Alli and 1 other.

20/04/16

Wednesday night's games promised so much but for my team it was nothing special. I still managed however to pick up 26 points and climb inside the top 100k. My current overall position is now 97651 with Sanchez (c),Ozil,Gabrielle and Evans to play tomorrow,here's hoping that i can stay inside the top 100k for the 1st time all season at the end of a GW.

17/04/16

After Saturday's games,i am inside the top 100k at 98.5k overall having scored 39 points but did take a -8 hit. It was still a green arrow of 6k though. Onto Sunday's games and the Liverpool resting of Coutinho and Mignolet has not helped but i still did score 32 points and now have a gw total of 71 (-8). My overall rank is now 76614 before the mid week games and this is the highest position i have been in all season.
Quick update after Monday night football without have any Spurs players in my team,i have fallen to 110k overall now but still hope to be inside top 100k by the end of the GW! After tuesday's games,i fell to 115k overall.

16/04/16

At this stage of the season and with the oportunity of points with a double gameweek,i feel that i have to go for it and play bench boost. My current team however is not really set up well for it so i have decided to do 4 transfers at a cost of -8. My reasoning behind this is as follows,i have in my 15 players Olsson who has lost his place at west brom, Flanagan who has disappeared in the Liverpool set up and although i believe he will start 1 of the dbl week,he has to go. Also Barkley is very doubtful and Lukaku is doubtful,plus Barkley was always only in for 1 week anyway and Lukaku has been too disappointing. So taking all this into concideration,it makes sense to me to make the following transfers,
Olsson - Smalling,
Flanagan - Evans who also has a game in 35,
Barkley - Coutinho (GW35)
Lukaku - Mitrovic (GW35)

In doing these transfers,it meant that hopefully i will have 14 doubles plus Mahrez and also gives me 10 for gw35. With regard to the Flanagan to Evans,i figure that should Flanagan not play at all,he will get me 0 points in 34 and 35 whereas Evans has cost me 4 points but if he plays both in 34,he should at least get me my 4 points back and then be actually up on the deal in gw35 all going to plan. To me this is exactly where a hit makes sense.The players who i thought about and so nearly did and i have a feeling will come back to haunt me are Milner and Carroll,i was so close to bringing these guys in but didn't!

14/04/16

After the C Palace v Everton game in which i scored nice points from Hennessy/Delaney and Coleman and even with a captain Lukaku fail,i have a green arrow for the gw of 34.5k and now my team is in 104k overall after scoring 81 points in gw33. It is my highest overall position after a GW all season and am now so close to getting inside the top 100k and then hopefully move on towards that top 1% overall finish.
This week i have to put some thought into my 2 transfers and i will most likely do 3 and take a -4 hit. The problem i have is that i have players like Flanagan/Olsson/Barkley and Rashford in my team and although i think Rashford will get some minutes,i have my doubts about the 2 defenders and Barkley was always just a 1 week punt anyway as it's the 1st time i have ever had him and will for sure never buy him again.
So it's now 6 consecutive green arrows and a rise of 271k since gw28 from 375k to 104k.

09/04/16

As i had used my wildcard at gw32,i went into gw33 with 5 double players and have saved my transfer so i will now have 2 for gw34. After saturday's games in which i scored 50 points,i have finally moved into the top 100k and now stand at 81778 overall which is a green arrow of 57k and my highest ranking so far this season. Now with only Mahrez to play tomorrow,i do expect to drop in the rankings but with 5 of my gw doubles to play again,i have fingerscrossed that i will be inside top 100k at the end of the gw. As expected after Sunday's games i have dropped to 148k overall but have 5 dbl players to play on wednesday night so still hoping for another green arrow!

03/04/16

After Sunday's games i am now in 138,867 overall and have a GW green arrow of  23.5k. I actualy believed that this gw would see a red arrow as i had played my wc and going without the likes of Kane/Vardy etc so i am pleasently surprised at having got a green arrow. Looking at my team,i am not happy with Olsson of West Brom and Flanagan of Liverpool as they both did not play this week at all. My transfer thoughts have changed slightly and am concidering doing Ozil to KDB this week but i am watching price changes before doing anything. Next weeks team will have 5 double gw players in it and although i am not overly confident with the dbls being from everton/c palace,i do however hope that they may do something. Sure afterall,Delaney scored for me this week so who knows.
Overall since the start of this post,the team has gone from 375k to 139k having got 5 consecutive green arrows.

02/04/16

Now before you think that my team is crap and it may very well be,i will expain some thoughts behind my WC selections. As i said previously,i wanted 5 dbl gw33 players so i have included them. I have kept Mahrez but had to sacrifice Kane and Vardy. My plan and the reason why i kept 0.8 in the bank is to that it will be needed to buy KDB for gw34. I will be making no ft's next week and using 3 the following which will be
out----Coleman/Barkley/Mahrez (for 1 week only)
in-----Janmaat/Lanzini or Antonio/KDB

After saturday's games and having scored 50 points (and also 7 points due off my bench), i am now in 147k overall and have a green arrow today of 15k.
 
31/03/16 (current position 162k from 375k at start of original post)

i have hit that "play wildcard" button after spending alot of time thinking about it during the dreaded international break. One of the main reasons for this is the inclusion in GW33 of Crystal Palace v Everton which may not be the greatest of extra games but afterall it is a double for both teams. I think that the double week 34 has in a big way deterred people's thoughts away from GW33. My plan is to have 5 double players in 33 and by using no transfers in 33,i will then be able to shift out 2 of these for the GW34 team. I will include the likes of Dann or Coleman and Barkley in my wc team but these 2 will be making way in gw34 for either of Coutinho or Firmino and also i will bring in a West Brom or Newcastle defender as they all play in GW35 also. All going well and barring injuries and hoping that they all will play,i would have 14 doubles in GW34 with using bench boost chip.

The way my team will be set up will require a total of 2 hits between gw35 and 37 in order to field 11 players in 35 and have 9 dbls in 37 and plan to also play Aguero and Sanchez and will also use Trip Captain that week too. I could however have 11 doubles playing in 37 but it is too far away now and the inevitable injury or suspension will have changed everyone's planning i am sure.

GW31
1 transfer done which was Alli in for Stanislas and i am carrying over 1 ft for next gw. After Saturday's games i scored 36 points and now my overall position is 189232, climb of 14k overall and still heading in the right direction.

After Sunday's games,my total GW31 score was 83 points and current overall position is now 162386 which was just under a green arrow of 41k for the gw.

So overall since the start of GW28, my team has gone from 375k to 162k. Another 126k more places to go now to reach my target.

Plan is to WC in GW33 and bench boost in GW34 as i see this as an opportunity of a double GW that really should not be missed in favour of the other option of WC in 36 for double in GW37. I do plan on having 14/15 doubles in 34, 11 playing in 35 and 10 doubles (with taking a -4 hit) in 37 with the triple captain chip used,all of course depending on no injuries to any of my players!


***Start Of Original Post***

I originally started to write this post prior to GW28 and was feeling optimistic and today i still fell optimistic of reaching my overall target but i will say that i will be happy with anything inside the top 100k as i have not been there at all all season!!

This is my aim and i will document my progress on a weekly basis and will update and publish my transfers also.I dont claim to be an fpl pundit or anything like that but i will do my very best to finish in the top 1% overall.

Previous Overall Finishes

 season            points        overall

2011/12	2156	14779
2012/13	2408	23
2013/14	2209	268064
2014/15	2159	20323

Current Position 375,661 with 1423 points  **prior to GW28**

Highest Position this season 114,978 at GW23

Chips Available---Bench Boost and Triple Captain

Wildcard Available

So taking this into concideration,a top 1% finish would be nice and i am up against it but i will give it a go.

GW28-30 has gone to plan although i am not over the moon about my scores but as i currently write this update,i am in 271302 overall so since the start of GW28,i have moved up 104k positions.

My current team prior to g GW30 is,

Butland
Francis,Van Dijk,Alderweireld,Morgan,
Arnautovic,Sigurdsson,Mahrez,
Aguero (c),Kane,Vardy

subs-Hennessy,Targett,Sanchez,Stanislas

For GW30 i made no transfers as i had 12 players available for selection and choose Aguero as captain over Kane and now knowing that Aguero did nothing,it seems to have been the wrong decision but anything can happen in fpl and Kane is still to play. But it is not all about not making Kane my captain,i still hope he scores big as he is in my team.

All thoughts of GW31 transfers are on hold as i am awaiting news on the Double GW's before doing anything.

***To be updated after Monday night's match***

Update!!

GW30 i scored a total of 60 points which is ok i suppose as the average was 35. I am now currently in 203165 position overall so i am still on course and it is now a rise of 172k in 3 GW's.

Still awaiting the double GW's announcements as they will determine my next moves.

Goodbye 20's Hello 30's

                                                                             
Just a very quick post today to celebrate my 2nd day into my 30's as it was my Birthday yesterday. While i was in my 20's,i always dreaded the day i would reach the big 3 0 as they say but as i am here now,it is fine and i plan to enjoy them.

To quickly sum up my 20's;

Got married at 21 (way too young),
Got seperated at 23,
Got divorced at 27 and met my BF!

I am going to do a list of 40 things i want to do before i am 40 so that could be fun.

So now as i am in my 30's now,i have a few things to sort out with myself but i do plan on enjoying them,

thanks for reading,

Hollie xx